Mood: Sad, Angry, Dissapointed

Im very sad... My mum doesn't believe in me. I really have done nothing with him. My mind is open doesn't mean that I have done those and thats why I will think that way. I soumpa and swear to heaven that Ive done nothing. But who will believe me? My friends don't believe, except I think Yiting, Wenhao and Angeline. Others doubt me, which I can understand. I've always talked about this topic opening with bunch of boys or whatever, I think thats the reason why my parents think that way of me. So you all want me to bluff Alex that I'm bearing his child now in order for him to get married with me? How can that be? If that ever happens, he will be the first one breaking up with me, cos both of us know that its totally impossible!!! Do you understand???

And me and my squash friends were just friends. Or they were not even friends at all, cos we has never heart-to-heart talk at all. I have never never done anything wrong to Alex. But why my mum thinks that way of me? My squash friends has never used any money to ask me to do anything with them at all! They are rich uncles doesn't me a young lady like me with them has noting to talk about at all except for sex and money. Think what? I'm a prositute? How can my mum think like that of me???

Peng Peng where are you? I really need you badly now, but I scared that I will disturb you again... Hope you will call me soon. Feeling down to core... :"(

Mood: Normal

Bought a Braun Buffel bag for $369 today...

My mum asked me to acc her to buy some facial cleanser de. Then in the end she did not buy any, instead, she saw this BB bag and forced me to buy it (for myself la). Cos she said that my bag is quite worn off le, should get a new one. At first she say: "Buy! Must buy. Come, I buy for you." So I thought that she will pay for it.

Then I said (for the sake of politeness): "No need la. I pay for myself la."

And she replied: "Oh ok lor."

=.=

Mood: :'(

电话响起了
但不是你的来信
很不相回应
因为心里只有你
这么迟了
你还在外头打平

旁边的电话
轻轻地重复
《最长的电影》和
《蒲公英的约定》

他又发信息来了
还是不相回应
心里还是只有你

就让周杰伦把我灌醉

夜深了
鹏鹏你在哪里？

:"(

Mood: Irritated

Feels irritating by every single thing today. Every simple incidents, every person around me, regardless is friend, family or strangers... Just felt so irritated by them by their every move, every speech, every behaviour, every response...

PMS ah???

Another Strange Dream...

The night before, I had another strange dream...

I dreamt that I woke up at my sis' place, and saw mum and dad infront of me, playing with Zofie. As there were smiling and playing with her, they told me: " You better go home now ok?" they said, still smiling, but without eyes contacting with me. I told them: "Huh? But I just woke up leh, let me stay a little longer la?" But they repeated:" You better go home now la..." same, smiling but not looking at me. I wondered why they kept asking me to go home sia. So I replied: "Ok la... But at least let me take a bath first la, k?"

Before they even replied me, I suddenly find myself in a shopping mall. The shopping mall in my dream looks alot like the area of Suntec at the Ducktours counter, but I'm certain that I'm not at Suntec at all. Where am I? I wanted to call my parents... Then I found out that my phone is not with me! Is it lost? I searched for my wallet as well and realised that its gone too!!! So how? I'd better report lost of my handphone by looking for any Singtel retail shop around, but recalled that I do not have my IC with me, as its in the wallet. Also, I would want to call up my debit card company and inform them that I've lost my ATM cards, but I do not have my phone with me! Help!

Are my wallet and phone left at my sis house? How do I know? I can't call her, nor do I know where am I exactly. Even if I know where am I, I can't go back cos I do not have my ezlink card with me!

Luckily, I found a few coins in my pocket, and coincidentally saw a public phone right infront of me. Suprisingly, the first person I called to is not my sis, nor my parents, but to Peng Peng!!!

I told him about my happening and said to him: "No wonder my parents asked me to go home just now. They know things are going to happen on me..."

And we talked for a few more words before he tell me: "You know, my friend, Glenn, died liao..."

I was so shocked and asked him: "Huh?! Which Glenn??"

He replied: "My friend Ah Kow la!!!" Geez... I never know that they were actually the same person. I thought that Glenn was his poly friend, and Ah Kow was his sec sch friend all along?? But strange, Peng peng din't sound sad at all... He sounded very normal, and even tell me: "Luckily I din't bring you to go fishing at Jurong... The fishes there will jump out of water and bite people one. It was supposed to be his brother get harmed by the fish de, but he protected his brother, so he was the one kenna bitten instead... Orelse he sure will not die de. The fish bit him, and he collapsed on the floor and died immediately."

"Wah, immediately ah?" I asked...

Till then, I slowly woke up...

Disclaimer: Glenn and Ah Kow are two different persons in real life, and I've confirmed with Peng Peng that they are still alive la... Oh ya, and both my HP and my wallet are still with me... ^^

During sleep...

The night before I had a very strange dream, it all started like this...

Someone told me that the bad guys are kidnapping my mum and my 4th aunt. When I heard the news, I put on my suit immediately and set off to rescue them. As I was about to reach the destination, I received another news that they have already killed them. Refused to believe it, I headed up to the venue regardless of what actually happened. Then I received another news that all of these were actually just a setup for me to be lured out and for them to kill me.

When I reached the house, I saw people wearing the funeral straw-made uniforms. Some were crying, but I reminded myself that they were just acting and the motive is to trap me up. As I entered, I saw two coffins. I walked closer with my heart thumping hard, afraid to see that the photos were them, though I kept telling myself that its all a fake setup. When I see the first coffin, its someone whom I don't know... So I glanced another coffin, and saw that its my 4th aunt. Suprisingly, I din't care about her happening at all. To me, she was just being an extra, and I wouldn't care even if she was alive or dead. All in my mind was actually my mum only.

I proceeded to the inner room behind the funeral. I saw an old lady lying on the table... It was my grandma who as passed away in the year 2003!!! I shooked her abit, and she opened her eyes!! "Grandma!!!" I shouted, and cried bitterly, "I missed you so much!!" and continued hugging her for a very long time and kept on crying. She asked me not to cry, as she is very well now. She looked younger than the day she was passed away. In fact, her face was just like the very first time when I saw her when I was just a little girl...

I asked her: "Do you know where my mum is?" She pointed to the cupboard above. There was an invoice, stating: YAT catering company. She told me that they have brought her to a secret place, but has been catering food from this company for her. So, in this case, only the delivery man knows where she is, right? So I called this company up, and asked: "May I know where you will be catering the food to? I just need to confirm the location." They thought that I'm one of the clients of this order, so they just told me: "Jurong Point block 205 right? The lady said that she will be sitting at the void deck whithout going anywhere and wait for us till we've arrived."

So... They have brought my mum to a block near Jurong Point? What for? My grandma told me to be becareful, cos these might be another trap for me as to lure me out there.

Till then, I woked up le.

All of the above are just a dream. My dream has always been crystal clear ever since I've entered my late poly life, and I don't know why. Don't ask me. Even the "YAT catering company" is what I've dreamt exactly, and the "block 205 near Jurong Point". Eerie eh???

Last night, I have dreamt another ridiculous dream. Will post it up in a new entry.

Sentosa with my Mum, Sis, and Zophie

I think my mum was the happiest person on that day. She can carry the heavy little Zofie for and hour plus non stop, without putting her down, and with all the attention on her, and not with the sentosa attractions.

As for me, Im the "Asam" (slave) of the day... Mum playing with Zofie, sis taking care of Zofie's needs, and me, helping to carry bags, helped a little on the stroller (when needed), carry umbrella, or taking pictures.

However, the day spent was really worth it la... Seeing my mum so happy...

I saw this peacock along our way at the Underwater World's entrance, don't know how cm its there, so simply just took a picture of it lor...

This is where Zophie is sitting in the most front seat of the Red Line bus, and is disturbing the driver la... =.=

Can you see the dolphin???

These are the biggest fishes I've ever seen in my whole entire life!!!

This one is around 2 meters long...

Video uploaded! Please take a look!

Another video... On bus!!!

The night niew of Vivo City from the cable car...

After we reached the mainland, we met up with dad to have dinner together at Dian Xiao Er... I think he was really happy to see Zofie too. Everytime my dad waves at Zofie, she will wobble her hands, clap, smile and "gaga". These makes my dad laughing happily non-stop.

Mood: =))

Happy Valentines' Day! How did your Valentines' day go? Hehe... I didn't buy anything for Peng Peng, neither did he buy anything for me, and we even met up only after 6.45pm... However, I'm still very happy la...

We ate Fish & Co right after we met up, just downstairs of his office. So we went in, inside was full of heart-shaped balloons! Actually the price was quite not worth it. $29.90++ per person! When we passed by Pizza Hut, a couple's hut delight meal yesterday was $30.90++ per couple!!! See the difference?

The above chocolates are the complementary gifts by Fish & Co lor. Small small only...

During our dinner, I mentioned things about flowers. Peng Peng seemed heck care of the topic. Then I said I wanted to take photo with him in front of the "LOVE" sign outside the Fish & Co. He said he will help me take when I posed there. I was rather sad when I heard those la. Then after seeing me sad, he does not wanna dissapoint me, so he agreed to take photo with me with the "LOVE" sign lor. Hehe...

And most importantly, he bought me a stalk of rose!!! I was so so so very de happy sia!!! Cos he told me long ago that he has never never bought any flowers to any girls in his life b4, not even for his gf, except once, to his ex, when his ex forced him to buy. But this time different... Is he initiate to buy for me de! Whahaha!!! *^-^*

I just received many announcements from all around my friends that they are getting married le. The guys proposed to the gals. So Chainee and Melvin, Rongguang n his gf, Terence and his gf, Angie and Xiao Bai, Peng Peng's collegue, and 2 other pairs of my friends (they say cannot say their name cos still a secret).

Hmm, marriage initially to me is a very sweet dream and which I've longed for it. But when I thought about it again, I really does not know how will I going to react if he suddenly proposes too. So I hope he better don't propose with me within this year la. Better next year or later. Heez...

Mood: Normal

I was thinking of buying that thing for Peng Peng on Valentine's day... But I know Peng Peng will be very angry with me de... He warned: "I don't wan anything. U better dun buy anything for me hor, tell u first. U better save up your money hor!" So I know he sure will be very angry if I still go ahead and buy de.

But Peng Peng, I really did separate savings for your present de leh. I really got enuf for myself la... If you don't let me buy I will be very very very sad de... :(

Mood: Happy!!!

Hihi!!! Today was the happiest day so far in my whole of 2008!!! Firstly, this evening Peng Peng called me and asked me if I wanna have dinner with him! Tehe... he seldom initiates having dinner or lunch with me de. So after I came out from office, I took 162 to go find him. Along the way... I saw the Ang Bao River beside Esplanade... So I was thinking if we could have dinner there and shun bian jalan jalan there. Wahaha...

So when I met him, I asked him where does he wanna have dinner at. He said: "Anything lor, u decide" (as expected and as usual). So I happily said: "Lets go Ang Bao river!!!" Then he ---> Duhz?! R u sure?

So with my closing power, he was fully convinced by my suggestion. Yeah! ^-^v

We took the bus all the way back to Esplanade, and went to look for food. The ranges of food was really quite alot, suprisingly. In fact, we bought quite alot of food. XXL chicken cutlet, 麻辣 dong hoon, Kebab, Ramli burger, sausage, prawn cracker, and a cup of mango juice. there were absolutely no place for us to sit when we were watching the performances on stage while eating and carrying so many things (together with my laptop bag and my handbag). I really cannot tahan anymore, so I suggested to find a seat right outside the tents. The dong hoon was too hot for me to finish. Just before I feel that I should leave the dong hoon alone, a lady came and approached us, giving us a can on Austria Red Bull for free! So we happily earned that too...

After eating, we went back to the stalls and see see. Wah, really so many cute stuffs... We saw a toy which wriggles around the floor as u pulls the string, and am thinking of buying one for Zofie, but I myself finds it abit scary leh (though its cute), cos the toy trembles quite alot, so I really wonders if it may scared Zofie too...

We saw a man walking around in the 财神爷 costume, giving blessings to people, we saw cute, various shaped plastic balloons with customised photos to be printed on the balloon itself, and which it does not deflate as you can blow through the pipe and inflate it whenever you like (SO CUTE), we saw a group of young Taiwanese acrobats performers really stunning us by their body and skills, we saw magic instruments, pokers, and little spiderman toys which I initially thought of buying it for Jeff, Justin and Joshua.

Suddenly, we stopped by a stall which sell hair binders. They were talking into the mic, demonstrating on some fake hairs using their binders, making dozens of patterns on the fake hair. People stopped by and see, blocking our way, and which therefore stopped our footsteps and took a look too. Peng Peng was rather facsinated by their demostrations. Suddenly, the man asked me to step forward and allow him to make demosnstrations on my hair! Peng Peng smiled and agrees that I should let tat guy bind my hair and see see. Walao... So paiseh sia... So many people around know!!! They all eyes looking at me leh!!! Then I embarressedly allowed him to form patterns on my hair infront of 10 over people. After all the bindings, Peng peng insisted that I should get one set for myself. He was so facsinated he even wanted to buy it for me. -.- So in the end we bought one set la.

As we walked down, I saw 2 buddha figurines in a box, and its free. So I took 2. Hehe...

Right opposite the stall, I finally found the man using melted candy doing art. He can use the melted candy to make dragons, pheonix, butterfly, and lots more!!! We stood there seeing him making flying dragon. OMG... Its absolutely gorgeous!!! My heart melted with the candy as he finished making the dragon. Immediately, I said that I wanted a dragonfly. Peng Peng suggested that I make a Pheonix better, cos more beautiful. But the person said: "Pheonix $6". Wah... I thought: "For what sia, so ex in the end still will end up in my tummy de ma..." Haha, so I said: "Then dragonfly la. $2 only..." I took the end product, licking it happily, and we stopped by an auction area.

As I was too tired to move on, plus I'm settling my candy, we sat down and watched the auction for a while. Ya, the Bi Xiu were nice, the ornaments were beautiful too, but I still prefer the fan-shaped wood frame, of the hand made silk flowers. After finish my candy, we bid farewell to the auction, and the rest of the Ang Bao River...

Hehe!!! Now back home le. Wah really getting sleepy liao. Gotta get up early tomolo for an appointment err... Good nighty everyone!!! *^-^*

Mood: Chinese New Year

Heyo!!! Happy Chinese New Year to all of you!! Haha, finally got time to blog le. Have been busying went visiting so many homes!!! So how? You guys got many Ang Baos? Heez... ^-^

Wah, these few days rather happening, don't know where to start writing la. But tomolo gg back to work le, got FM! :( Don't know what are they going to say le. Hmm, let me guess. Their opening words will be: "I think you guys had an enjoyable new year hor? I see the fun that you all had at the boss' condo... Must had alot of Ang baos and all that... Have to thank the committees for such a successful and enjoyable Lou Hei event." Hehe... don't know will be right anot.

Wah, really don't know what to write leh. But anyway gotta continue to work from tomolo onwards le. Kambate!!!

Mood: Sleepy, Worried

Today finally met Peng Peng for a while le, and his mood was much better. :) He was actually thinking of buying CNY clothes de, end up I'm the one who bought, and he bought nothing. Wahaha...

Just now went to play squash... My client did not come, despite I brought so many things for him. Cos his mum suddenly fell sick, so he is unable to cm and play today. Geez, heard it was quite serious... Hope his mum get well soon...

Then came the squash coach, who is an PruAdviser as well!!! Then my squash mates insisted me to play and learn from him. I think he is a full time squash instructor, and is a part time adviser la. Cos he seldom talk to them much, and is a grade A player of squash!!! I heard he had many students, and all are extremely well players. If any of you knows anything about squash, it has 8 grades. The lowest grade is H, followed by G, F, E, D, C, B, and A (highest). The grade are not by tests nor exams. Its by competition! None of my squash mates has the ability to be even a H player... Though I already feel that they are very well trained le. So you can imagine how good that coach is.

Indeed. I played 30mins non stop with my squash mates, but I'm still not exausted. But when the coach gave a little training for me just now, I nearly surrendered in less than 5mins! =.= Heng the time was up, and there are other players waiting for the court le, so we gotta get out from the court.

Haiz, just now I watched a fortune telling variety show, and it says that Peng Peng will be very tired this coming hours till end of tomolo, and that he will be busying up and down, entertaining friends and helping them this and that. Right after they finish saying it, he called at 12am just now and said that he is very tired, but his friends asked him to go Katong play dota... At this very hour!!! And he has to reach office at 930am tomolo (CNY eve)!!! Grrr... Why can't he be more firm of himself... He complained to me this afternoon saying that he is very very tired, and hope to jump into bed immediately. Can you imagine how tiring he is now at this very moment? *Heart broken, worry about his health*... :(

Mood:

I've waited and longed for 5 days+ le. Peng Peng hasn't been talking much to me even after Im bk from Bintan. I thought that he might have longed for my return, but during that very day, he met up with his cousin to go Katong for gaming. I thought that I might be able to meet him up after Bintan de. Well, its ok.

Thursday I only managed to meet up awhile with him, whereby he seems so uptight and gloomy.

Friday we only meet up for awhile too, and he seemed worse than the day before. I tried to cheer him up, but seems his work stuffs has dominated his emotions. He was rather vexed and even more low-spirited. I dint dare to ask much either. Suddenly felt so lonely, even though he is just beside me... Cos I just don't feel his spirit with him at all... No matter how hard I tried, he is just so blue... Then he promised me that Sunday will be my day. I expects that he will then be too tired, and thus unable to cm out by then.

Saturday he went Genting. I know he doesn't like to go de, but due to his work, bobian.

Today he is bk, but only till home cos his phone is with his collegue. He called me just a while, and at ist we will be going out de, but he asked me to call him bk at 5pm. When I called him bk, he was sleeping. His voice was so shagged... How am I supposed to ask him out like that? I don't wish to see him so sian sian again ma. So I asked him back to sleep lor.

Sometimes when he is having afternoon nap, he don't wish to sleep till too late de, cos he wants to sleep at night, if not he will be unable to get a good rest in the night. So I called him at 1030pm to see whether he is still sleeping and wants to wake up or not. In the end he I really woke him up la. He said: Hey I call you again later.
We hasn't even talked for one sentence. I havn't even tell him what I wanted to say to him.

These few days he has been like that. We can't even talk for a few words. He always say that he will call me back, but in the end he did not. So I just waited. And when we comes out, he is so gloomy. What should I do? I missed him so much at Bintan, and when he is in Genting, but it all seems that its such a one-sided feeling. Feels like he dint even wanna tok to me for more than a minute.

I think if he does not wanna talk nor meet, or even miss me, then I shouldn't be the one being so enthusiastic and give in so much too... Its really so exhausting and tiring. *Gasping for air*...

Still waiting... <:(

Mood: Normal

Ok guys, here is a pic of what I've done. Its a lantern made of red packets. Actually, I was quite suprised that this lantern took me less than a day. I have done lots of different kinds of red-packet lanterns for the past few years, but this year, I only done this. Cos the place where I usually buy red packets from, has suddenly stopped selling big bulks of normal red-packets le, and they are selling those modern and fanciful, expensive red packets this year le. It has been raining these days, and I hasn't got time nor clue of where to find big bulks of red packets again. My mum is nagging me these few days to ask me to do a pair of lantern for my big aunt as she said that she would like to have a pair. But its not that I don't wanna do, its that I couldn't find the red packets le. So guys if you know where I can get them please please tell me k?

Think if there is anybody wishes to have any lantern next year, I will sell it to them ba. Hmm, say... $8 per lantern? Isit too ex? Cos its selling at $20+ per piece outside leh... Hmm, but don't know if anyone wants to buy from me anot la. Wahaha...

Mood: :((

Ok, now Peng Peng is back, however, he called me only when he reached home, cos both his hp and wallet are with his collegue, and he forgot to take them back. Then he said he is tired and went to sleep le.

Mood: :(

Just came back from Ivan's baby daughter's full month. Peng Peng isn't bk to Singapore yet. My hp never ring... Don't know what time he will be bk... :"(

*P.S: Does anyone knows how long does it take from Genting to Singapore huh?

Mood: Normal

So in the end, Mao mao is unable to meet me for dinner. Me and Jialin stucked at the bustop, calling and planning. At first I managed to ask Elvin out for dinner de, but in the end I waited for the bus too long, began to feel tired, so cancelled our meeting le.

• Mingxi - Out with his cousin
• Angeline - Sticked with her bf
• Kengyang - Having reunion dinner with his family
• Sis - At her friend's birthday party
• Dad - Just reached home
• Zhenjie - Need to do spring cleaning
• Shijun - Playing majong with his friends

I think I'm going to be outcasted soon le. Gotta keep close contact with my friends wor... So now is 9pm le, and I havn't eat yet, cos did not pass by any foodstalls until reached home.

Tomolo is celebrating Ivan's baby daughter's ist month!!! Hehe, so long time never see his baby le (ever since her 2nd day), don't know how she look like le... *^^*

Mood: Hungry

Now in office, don't know what time Mao mao will call me to save me. Now super hungry le, he said he will call me to tell me if he will be meeting me for dinner, but I don't dare call him la, wait disturb him and his friend... =.= So now Jialin beside me irritating me lor. Ask those wu ay bo ay stuffs. -.-"

Peng Peng went to Genting with his workmates. At ist he don't want go de. But his collegues pressure him, say is a political issue, so cannot choose. Wahaha... I can understand la. So I also think he better go la.

Mood: Sudden Sianz

Oh man... Nearly forgot that I will be having driving class at 9am tomorrow. Wrote that down last week, saw that note this afternoon, then jus now forgot again le, until I saw my room clock, its 1st of Feb, then suddenly remembered again that I've gotta sleep early tonight. -.- But I was glad that at least this morning I had slept till bao bao!!! Haha, so long never sleep till so full le. ^^

This afternoon thought mao mao will be coming my office look for me de. So waited for his call, waited and waited... Suddenly he called me, said that he called Meijun too, and asked me to go down Orchard instead. Wakaoz, all so sudden, was doing things halfway man, so in the end I was late la, then they insisted me to buy them drinks lor. Heng mao mao know how to be a man sia... He say never mind, he treat us. Lol... Then after that last minute called Rongguang, and he came too!!! Wah... Was actually just a meeting up between me and mao mao de, then in the end became a mini gathering sia!!! Haha... So happy to see them leh, so long long time never see them le.

Rongguang is getting married end of this year le. We were so suprised, cos of his uncle face, still can get married faster than us sia! Wahaha... Then we made fun of him, asked him to prepare to buy a juvenile plan from me sia... Kekeke! But don't worry la, his fiancee is not pregnant la. He said he is not this kind of person... o.O

Really happy to see them la... Too bad Meijun and Rongguang gotta leave early, left me and Mao mao. I really think Mao mao is a gentleman leh, I felt this way ever since I get to know him in poly last time le. Its a pity that his ex left her. But hope they will patch back soon and her gf to be more understanding in his working schedulle ba.

Haiz, gtg sleep le la. Dunnw what time Peng Peng will be bk home sia. Always downstairs "la kopi" with his friends... Think tonight he will be home at 4am ba. Nag him he say I fan, then dun nag le lor.