Mood: Don't Know

I don't know is you start to hate me liao or what, and I don't know is it your feelings for me had faded... But I just want to tell you that I really misses you very much each day. If you are really purposely avoiding me and are angry with me, I really don't know what I can do, cos I also don't dare to call you, scared that we may end up making each other unhappy again. If you just wanting to give me some free time of my own, I really want to thank you, cos I really needed it these few weeks, or probably up till next month (to concentrate to buck up my production since I did not work for one whole month). But no matter what, my love for you has never changed...

Mood: Fine

There are so many things that's in my mind. My work, my friends, my relationship, my family... How I wish there is someone out there to listen to me... I know many of them are willing to listen to my problems, thanks... However, its impossible to tell one single person about all my stuffs.

I just went to a friend's ROM buffet. Other of my classmates came too. One of my classmates is/are (her boyfriend also our classmate) getting married next week le. She suddenly gave me see a photo of her foetus when she took in the hospital. What a suprise. She is pregnant. Hmm, many of them thought: Is it too soon? And for the friend who ROM today is also barely 21 years old (she is not pregnant). Well, I just tell myself no need think so much ba.

Thanks for those who eventually became my friends, you people really brighten up my day.

Hmm, just wish your can do something for me occasionally without complains and stuffs. Isn't it should be happy to do something for me? Why am I always the one who is doing things for you willingly? Moreover, you don't appreciate what I does sometimes.

Dear friend, when will you stop thinking about him? Its really not worth brooding and making yourself unhappy. Why can't you just be strong? Why do you make others worry for you when you are just getting upset over a person? Is it really worth it? I don't see a point here. Please... Its time for you to wake up.

*Bless my dad*

Mood: Happy

I really respect this collegue of mine. I am really impressed and really admire his life very much. I lived for nearly 22 years, this is the first time I hear such story which is reality, not in drama series.

By the age of 15, he was being kicked out of home after being abused by his parents for 15 years. The reason was so simple: The family is poor, his dad need to earn extra income by renting a room, so they kicked him out of home so that they can rent his room out. Its totally so ridiculous. Day after day, he sleeps and stays at bus stops, rubbish chutes, void decks, and such everyday after school. At that point of time, he thought: Even if I die now, it means nothing to the world, because I don't have any home and loved ones around me at all. He is totally alone.

Until one day, he finally found a job, and began to rent a room in someone's house. He starts to see how other family "works". He felt so strange and couldn't figure out how come when the son is sick, the dad would want to send the son to see a doctor, and that the mum would want to buy tonics for them. He just don't understand and thinks that this family is adnormal. As time goes, he then found out that his own family is actually the one which is adnormal.

Till today, he does not know where his own parents are le. I asked him, don't he hate his parents? He jus replied: There was totally no time for me to think of those le, cos the only thing I'm is concered of that period of time is how to survive day after day.

After his sec 4, he immediately signed on for police. That time, he was just 17 years old. A 17 years old police in Singapore. Although he was just 17 years old that time, he was being respected by the rest of the police officers in the station, because he has experience lots of things who the others doesn't. There were so many things that he is able to handle, and which other policemen are not able to.

Today, he is 30+ years old le, and just got ROM with his wife. Hope that they can have a wonderful and blissful marriage and family.

*Salute*